I definitely do, although i am not sure to what extent.
Today is the ninth anniversary of the day my sister died. I don't "celebrate" this day, i try to forget about it, i'd rather honour her memory on her birthday but anyway, i digress.
Every year, on this day, something happens that's just a bit weird. One year it was the lights turning on and off of their own accord but this year it was just the dog being weird. I was sitting at the sewing machine in the kitchen with my back to the living room door, the dog's bed is to my left and he was lying there, facing the door, growling, at nothing, now i know this isn't unusual for a dog, but it felt "weird" to me and i kept glancing at the glass in the back door to make sure there was nobody standing in the living room cos that's what it felt like. It really did. It's probably just my imagination working overtime because i know what the day is but up to that point i didn't know - i'd actually managed not to think about it. Once i'd said hello to "her" and asked her to stop freaking the dog out he was quiet.
We didn't always get on my sister and i but there isn't a day that goes by when i don't think of her and i still miss her immensly. I regret the arguments we had but i am so thankful for the time we had together before she died. Life is way too short. Make the most of it.
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